Poor Richie...

Or I should say Ron Howard. It seems that he's been banned from filming in and at Catholic churches in and around Vatican City.

Alas, I can't even say I object to the books or movies for religious objections. I tried reading Da Vinci Code and couldn't get through it. Then I thought I'd watch the movie. I actually turned it off. It dragged and bored me endlessly. I guess I probably won't be seeing Angels and Demons when it comes out, espeically since I won't get to see some of the beautiful footage in Catholic churches. ;-)

I'm still snarky, pissy and moody tonight.

Well, It's Started

So today, I heard my first Christmas Song on the radio today. It was Mariah Carey's, "All I Want For Christmas Is You." I'm not a Mariah Carey fan at all, but I do admit that I really do enjoy this song.

I'm also feeling quite eager and hopeful for Christmas this year. I think I will put up my tree early this year. Last year it was a struggle to get it up and then to get it taken down. I really don't know why I feel so Christmasy right now. I have no money and bills to pay. The economy is bad. My parents are worried about money and the tenant renting our income generating property is struggling in this economy. I really worry that he will walk away leaving us in the lurch. I suppose I should pray for help, but sometimes, I hate praying for such "self-serving" things.

My love life is non-existent again this year, yet I'm used to that. I'm also pretty sure I can survive New Years.

But I have other things. I have good friends, my family-- despite being my family sometimes-- is happy, healthy and well. I'm doing okay in general and I'm fortunate that I have a home and people who love me. I have my faith, albeit, it's a bit shaky right now, but I do believe and I do want to grow stronger spiritually and truly understand what it all means to me.

While I know I'm blessed, I still think about what I don't have and wish otherwise. That's simply human nature. Hopefully one day, I'll find some of my prayers answered in a way that I'd like, but if they aren't, I'd like to be able to say that I can accept things as they will be. Acceptance is the hardest thing. Isn't it the last stage of grieving?

Old Religious Imagry.

I'm on a slight genealogy kick. I haven't gone all that far back on my family tree, but being that my ancestors first arrived in New Mexico 400 years ago (give or take) and have been here continuously since returning after the Pueblo Revolt of 1680, and seeing as how they've always been Catholic, I just might be able to connect the dots and trace my family back. It would sure be nice to know the whole story, instead of just repeating the family rumors. Also, I've rediscovered La Herencia magazine. It's listed in the links section on my sidebar. Unfortunately most of the content from the issues is not on the web and I hadn't seen the magazine in bookstores in quite a while. It became subscription only so I didn't encounter it much. I saw the summer issue and hoped to find some pictures online somewhere. I checked the Palace of the Governors where I saw some old photos a while back and sure enough many of the photos used in the magazine were there, plus a lot more.

This is a 1948 image of La Conquistadora.

I also found an old image of a Procession of La Conquistadora. and here a page of pictures with many religious processions through the years. I wish the fees for usage weren't so expensive because I'd love to have copies of all these old pictures. At least there are archived and uploaded to the Internet for public viewing. This is an archive page of other religious pictures.

My mom used to talked about the traditions for Corpus Christi. There are images of that here, but she also would mention that they'd stop by all the churches in town and people would set up altars along the way. Here's one image of an altar and here is another which is really lovely. So while that photo was in the 1800's the tradition of setting up altars must have continued through the 30's and 40's while my mother was growing up. It's sad that we've lost that.

Beauty in a Time of Devastation

This photo is going around the Blogosphere. Here are the details and photo credit.

A statue of the Virgin Mary is seen among the rubble of burned out mobile homes at the Oakridge mobile home park in Sylmar, California, on November 18, 2008. The fire near the suburb of Sylmar devastated nearly 500 properties in the Oakridge mobile home park and has burned around 10,000 acres. By Jewel Samad/AFP/Getty.

I'm Blogged Out.

I have a half-finished post in draft mode, but I'm too tired to finish it now. I have a few thoughts on the post-election mood of the nation, but quite frankly I'm tired of talking about the election. Also on my not-so-finished blogging agenda are some ramblings about my worries for the next year, a brief mention about my family and other real life things, but right now the only thing I can do is read Clerical Whispers. The Irish priest who blogs there really does a good job informing the rest of us in the blogsophere of the Catholic and not-so-much Catholic news. It's almost scandalous to waste so much time reading his entries. ;-)

I really need to get back to setting aside time for prayer. I really was finding that I was starting to feel a bit more spiritually grounded when I was praying regularly and now... I think I've just fallen into a drought. I have my prayer book close by, I have my rosary by the bed and at any time during the day I can certainly sit quietly and say a few impromptu prayers, but I just can't make myself do it. It's probably not a mattering of making one's self do it. Honestly, I wish I knew.

I still plan to make some sort of a New Year's Resolution when the new liturgical year starts. I'd like to focus on both my spiritual and physical well-being. I would like to spend a little bit of time growing spiritually through prayer, reading and studying more about the Church and I need to exercise more regularly. I believe that both those activities will lessen the stress of real life a bit.

I can't believe Thanksgiving is in just over a week. Christmas Tree lots are gearing up for the Christmas season. With our unseasonably warm temperatures, I am glad that I have a fake tree because I think the cut trees, which have probably been cut for weeks now, will dry out quickly on the lots long before they get taken home.


*image I spotted ages and ages ago while looking up something on Day of the Dead or something related to Mexican or Chicano literature or culture. I don't recall the artist, otherwise I'd credit. And I photoshopped it just a bit to change the text on the computer screen. But... it illustrates just how wiped out I feel.

Evolution, Monkeys, and the Catholic Church... Oh My

More Video Love. Originally posted at the Busted Halo website but I saw it in the America Magazine blog, In All Things first. This video explores Catholicism and Science and how as Catholics we can definitely believe in Evolution and Creationism. I still remember a surprising comment I received a long time ago when I mentioned that in Catholic school we studied Evolution. My non religious, very well-educated friend seemed shocked that I actually learned both subjects in my classes. I've never known a time when, as a Catholic, I've ever heard anything antagonistic toward Evolution. The former Vatican Astronomer is interviewed and clearly knows his stuff. I really enjoyed this video and think it's definitely worth viewing.

Silence Has Never Sounded So Great (Updated)

I was watching a video clip of the Cathusian Monks from the movie "Into the Great Silence" doing their chant (posted here) and then I followed some links after the clip and got sucked into another group of monks and their life in an Italian monastery.



Interesting way of life. I haven't watched the other parts following this clip but I will. And no I still have not watched the movie I recorded off EWTN a few weeks back. I'm a little more obsessed with watching Supernatural these days. It's kinda fun to like something on TV again.

I've been watching the movie. It really is beautifully made and engaging. I truly can't imagine living the life of either the monks or the brothers (the nuns for that matter) but it's marvelous to get a glimpse into something I can't imagine or will never know. I think this is the "official" website for the order.

Save Me From the Crazies

Me thinks I need to continue my hiatus from the Catholic Blogosphere. Maybe it's the change of seasons, the full moon, tension in the air, food poisoning or something, but anywhere I go, insanity seems to reign, from the benign and insignificant to the heated and divisive. I had quit reading a few popular forums for quite a while and now I think I know why. I went back to one and got caught up in the same old, same old kind of posts, full of complaints, criticisms and judgments about the Church and Catholics, (none of this had anything to do with politics either). I read a lot of blogs, and there are only a few that I read from time to time, but I've been skipping those ones lately. The Catholicism community still continues to drive me insane. There are some really fabulous members and posters there, so I won't drop it, but I mostly skim it these days. In fact I posted something last night and didn't quite get the answer I was looking for, but quite honestly, I didn't expect to either. Still, I do have to answer comments and will, but I'm not even sure I want to open LJ tonight either.

I don't know why I've been so irritable and easily annoyed lately.

Holy Cow.

Story Gacked from the BBC News. Link at the end.

Russia church 'stolen by thieves'

Thieves frequently target churches in the Russian countryside

A 200-year-old church building has disappeared from a village in central Russia, officials from the Russian Orthodox Church say.

The building had stood near the village of Komarovo since 1809.

It was intact in July but some time in early October thieves made off with it brick by brick, they said.

Local prosecutors had been informed and an investigation was under way, a spokesman for the local Russian Orthodox Church said.

The disappearance of the Church of the Resurrection, some 300 km (186 miles) north-east of Moscow, was not immediately noticed.

It was in an out-of-the-way area and was not being used, although Church officials were considering resuming services there.

Now all that remained of the two-storey building - a school before it was turned over to the Church - were its foundations and some sections of wall, the Church said.

Thieves often target churches in rural Russia. Religious icons can be sold and church structures sold off for building materials.

How does someone/some people steal an entire church and no one notice? Seriously?

Explain This One

This morning I woke up dreaming about photographing the Pieta. I love taking pictures and I actually dreamt that I was there as Jesus was taken down from the cross and placed in his mother's arms. It seemed so real. It was actually very colorful and sadly beautiful in my dream, very much like this image of the Pieta in Raphael's painting. I never have religious dreams or dreams with religious imagery so I found this one especially intriguing. I woke up either after a phone call or the dog wanting to go out, but I really wanted to go back to sleep to try to finish it. It wasn't like I was a first century follower of Jesus in the dream. I was myself, a modern day woman, probably a reporter or photographer reporting on the actual event as it happened. That was was was so interesting about the whole thing. Earlier in the day I was talking about the New Testament, the four Evangelists and the gospels and their histories. In our time period, we know we don't have actual eye-witness writings from the event, but that the gospel writers were writing after the period. We know the gospels were written after his death and not complied into the Bible as we know it until much later. Maybe in my dream, I was trying to be there, trying to witness the history for myself. I love history and I love journalism. Hmm... that makes sense.

Also, yesterday, my dad and I were talking to the tenants who rent our old family home and they were asking about the mosaic on an exterior wall. It's an old house, 250 years or so. It's been in my mom's family for years, and I thought the mosaic was very old. It turns out it's not much older than me. My aunt brought it back for my mother from Italy. My mother really doesn't like any kind of religious art at all so she didn't want it in the house per se. So, Dad put it on the back wall outside. It's held out well, not one piece of glass is missing. While it's not the Pieta, it's the entombment of our Lord in the tomb. It may have also sparked my dream. Nonetheless, it's quite gorgeous and sadly I don't have a picture, but I'll get one.

However, in this one you can get a glimpse of it in the background. That's me and my godfather, Uncle Frankie, my mom's youngest brother.


Perhaps, I in my dream, I was taking pictures of a reenactment. My friend was telling me about the "Religulous," Bill Maher's movie, which mocks religion. It's not on my list of movies to see. I finally stopped watching him as he managed to offend me, but anyway, in the movie she said there is a theme park in Orlando where apparently the crucifixion is reacted for an audience. She said he showed the audience captivated. They were either crying or applauding. I shudder to think about it. As Catholics we reenact the Passion of Jesus Christ on Good Friday. I know we follow the Stations of the Cross, but we don't do these things as a stage production but as a witness and testament to our faith. I'm might be judging something too harshly but it sounds like cheap thrills to me.

Heartbreaking...

This is the story about the 8-year-old-boy who killed his father and another man in Arizona. I saw it hit the news last night but didn't know anything about it. As I read it, I wanted to cry. I can't fathom how an 8-year-old could methodically kill two adult men. I don't understand why he'd want to murder them. It just shocked me. As I read through the whole article, when I came to the part where it said he was a third grader, my heart skipped a beat.

My catechism kids are all third graders. I can't imagine any one of them having the means or the capacity to commit such a horrible crime.We talked about mortal sin last Monday night. They understand that murder is a mortal sin, but I just can't believe children that age would really and truly think about killing someone for no apparent reason or have any real understanding of what they have done. I certainly hope to God that's the case.

Of course, many of the other details about the murders haven't surfaced, and maybe we will never know but there are two dead men and an 8-year-old little boy charged with their murders. The only thing we can do is pray for them all right now.

You know...

You're a big Catholic geek when at Mass you get excited to hear the Roman Canon and on that particular day you really and truly felt something divine happen at Mass.

More on the Utah Crosses

Today, a Journal North article follows up on the story about 14 Crosses erected as monuments to fallen Police Officers are still being challenged by a group of atheists seeking to ban the crosses. The story is also posted below. I blogged about it when the first story came out. I don't think I'm saying anything new here, so read the story and come to your own conclusions.


Saturday, November 08, 2008
Atheists Seek to Ban Roadside Memorials in Utah Case
By Kiera Hay And Mark Oswald
Copyright © 2008 Albuquerque Journal Of the Journal
New Mexico Attorney General Gary King is weighing in on a Utah court case in which atheists are challenging 12-foot-high steel roadside crosses erected to memorialize slain Utah state troopers.
King is worried that, if the Utah crosses are forced to come down, New Mexico's descansos — private roadside crosses, usually erected at the site of a highway death, that are an ubiquitous part of local culture protected by state statute — could also be challenged as an unconstitutional use of state-owned highway property for religious purposes.
"Although this case is currently specific to Utah, it could adversely affect New Mexico law that protects traditional descansos," King said in a prepared statement.
King joined attorneys general from Oklahoma, Colorado and Kansas and lawyers for an interfaith group called The Beckett Foundation for Religious Liberty in filing a brief in the Utah case before the U.S. Tenth Circuit Court of Appeals in Denver.
"Filing an amicus brief on our state's behalf supports those fighting the proposed ban (of the Utah crosses) and helps us protect the use of crosses or other symbols in roadside memorials," King said.
At issue in the Utah case is whether the trooper memorials violate the constitutional prohibition against state establishment of religion, by endorsing Christianity. A federal District Court judge ruled in favor of the Utah crosses, but American Atheists, Inc., — plaintiffs in the case — have appealed.
Santa Fe city government is already on record opposing a ban of the Utah crosses. In September, the City Council voted to have its lawyers file a brief in the case.
Santa Fe City Attorney Frank Katz told the Journal at the time that the Utah Highway Patrol had approached Santa Fe for support, apparently because of the Cross of the Martyrs, the big cross overlooking downtown that honors 21 Franciscan friars killed in the 1680 Pueblo Revolt.
An Oct. 24 brief filed on behalf of Santa Fe and numerous Utah state legislators by a Washington, D.C., law firm states that a ruling against the Utah crosses "could jeopardize the Cross of the Martyrs, or at very least subject the city to costly litigation."
But the lawyer for American Atheists dismisses concerns that their suit is a threat to New Mexico's traditional religious markers.
"Part of the defense attorneys' strategy to is to have this parade of horribles that could happen," said Brian Barnard of the Utah Legal Clinic in Salt Lake City.
"The crosses we're concerned about have the Utah State Highway Patrol logo attached. That becomes the government's stamp of approval, literally.
"The roadside memorials or descansos are put up by ordinary folks, ordinary folks who don't have government participation."
He also said that, in Utah, descansos are against the law and have to be removed if someone puts one up. That means, he said, that the 14 trooper memorial crosses erected by the nonprofit Utah Highway Patrol Association, which represents state troopers and their families, have "a special privilege that nobody else does."
"We're only dealing with crosses that are on government property and have the government's logo on them," Barnard said. "Descansos are safe." As for Santa Fe's Cross of the Martyrs, Barnard pointed to indications that the cross isn't on public property and therefore "has no relation to our lawsuit."
The Cross of the Martyrs location has a complicated ownership history, and according to information provided Friday by city government, is in fact not on city land — although the city parks department maintains the site.
Santa Fe spokeswoman Laura Banish said the cross belongs to Los Caballeros de Vargas, which helps organize Santa Fe's annual September Fiesta celebrations, including a solemn religious procession to the Cross of the Martyrs.
Hillside property from Paseo de Peralta up to the cross, including a switchback path, belongs to the Santa Fe Fiesta Foundation, Banish said. The city owns the park behind and to the east of the cross.
Previous owners of the cross include the Cathedral Basilica of St. Francis of Assisi and the Santa Fe Fiesta Foundation. The foundation, formed in the 1980s, deeded the cross to Los Caballeros, Banish said. Los Caballeros pays property tax on the cross, she said.
The brief filed on behalf of New Mexico and the other states in the Utah case notes that New Mexico law makes it a crime to "knowingly or willfully deface or destroy" a descanso and argues that a ruling against the Utah crosses would jeopardize New Mexico's practice of "allowing private speech on public property" by permitting and protecting the roadside memorials.
Utah exercised no control over the design of the trooper crosses that would constitute endorsement of a religion and its legislature has passed a resolution supporting use of not only crosses, but "any other appropriate symbols as requested by the family (of a fallen trooper)," the brief says.
The plaintiffs want to "require Utah to suppress the (Highway Patrol) Association's speech solely because of its religious viewpoint," and that would violate the association's free speech rights, the brief says.

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Now descansos are all over the place in New Mexico. I really would like to do a historical post about them with pictures. Here are a few examples. They are left behind to mark the spot where someone died. Usually, the loved ones erect them in their memory. It's not unusual to see flowers appear on certain days of the year-- the person's birthday, the anniversary of their death, Memorial Day, All Souls Day, Christmas. Some are elaborate others are simple. They dot highways, city streets or winding mountain roads. The two below are actually on the same intersection where a young girl was killed and a year or so later a woman was killed in horrible car accidents. There is actually a statue of Our Lady of Guadalupe on the other corner. I don't believe that is in memory of anyone else killed, but is more of a gentle reminder to be cautious and careful.


In this picture post, if you scroll down you'll see another one. It's a simple cross but obviously someone loved and cherished died on that spot too.

These are parts of my culture and I'd hate to see them taken away by a group of people on a mission to rid this nation of all outward signs of religion.

Requiescat In Pace

Today is the fifteen anniversary of the death of my maternal Grandfather, Gus. There is so much about my grandfather I probably don't know. I was in my twenties when he died, so I was fortunate that I grew up knowing him. My paternal grandfather died when I was only five, so the memories I have of him are few and most are just stories told from my father and other relatives who knew him best. I don't even know what day he died. I should try to find that. My paternal family tree is pretty hard to fill in but I will tackle that one day soon.

Grandpa Olivas wasn't a real complex man. He wasn't a great business man, he worked hard and always provided for his family. I don't believe he finished high school but he was smart, caring and compassionate. He was a veteran of World War One. He was stationed in France and apparently saw some pretty horrific things. Mom says he didn't talk much about his experiences in the war. I believe he was awarded a few medals too. He then worked for the rail road and I believe that's how he met my grandmother who was teaching school at the little school near Glorietta. It's not all that far from Santa Fe, but in the 1920's it was miles and miles away. The way I know the story is that he'd pick her up on Friday afternoons and bring her to Santa Fe and then he'd bring her back on Sunday night so she could teach during the week. Now it's maybe a 20 minute drive, I imagine back then it was a much longer journey. Commuting was not a possiblity then.

He then worked as a security guard at the Federal Courthouse. Mom remembers taking him dinner at night. Even though she didn't live with her parents, (her aunt raised her. it's a long story, which is quite interesting and the making of a good fairy tale I think) she'd accompany her brother and other younger siblings to take him something to eat, as he worked at night. Then Santa Fe was a small town and safe, that young kids could walk the mile or so from their home to town without any fears or dangers.

He had six children with my grandmother, raised one of my cousins and enjoyed all his grandchildren. He had a stubborn streak, on that runs through the veins of all his children and grandchildren. It's one of the charms of the Olivas family. ;-)

So, he had a stubborn streak. He loved the wrestling matches. He'd drive down to Albuquerque to watch the fights, as he'd call them. You couldn't tell him that they were staged and it was entertainment. He'd get very upset and offended. He also loved baseball. He'd squirrel away in his den to watch TV. He smoked lucky strikes forever and he loved poker. He and Grandma would trade bards from time to time, but they loved each other so much. He was pretty stoic and nothing seemed to get to him. I think Mom said that when she died, he came to her, knowing her soul had left this world. She said he cried that morning.

There are other memories that always bring a smile to my face. In his later years, he had a blue chevelle and he'd pick me up from St. Mike's from time to time. He and Grandma were married for nearly 65 years and lived most of those years in the little house on Delgado Lane. My great-grandfather gave them the land and helped build the house. After Grandpa died, the children sold it and sadly it's no longer in family hands. It's been rennovated and turned into a million dollar property with a guest house where Grandpa's garage used to be. The lillacs are long gone and yet when I drive by it, I see the house as it was, not as it is.

Rest in Peace, Augustin.

Digging In the Dirt

By: The Associated Press

Excavation uncovers 17th century Santa Fe

SANTA FE, N.M. (AP) - Archaeologists have found parts of 17th century Santa Fe. Excavations found bits of pottery that weren’t imported into New Mexico after the Pueblo Revolt of 1680. The Spanish Colonial artifacts were found in a trash deposit 32 inches below the surface. Archaeologists also found a cobblestone surface four-and-a-half feet down. The cobbles could have been an extension of a street to meet the Santa Fe Plaza when it was larger. That’s the thought of Jim Moore and Guadalupe Martinez of the state Office of Archaeological Studies. Moore says it’s possible that instead of a cobble road, it might have been a stable yard. The dig began last week to clear the way for plans to redevelop old hospital buildings downtown. (Copyright 2008 by The Associated Press. All Rights Reserved.)