Sunday, February 26, 2012

Like the Deserts Miss the Rain...

Well, yeah it's Lent. And I'm feeling more and more distant from my faith and beliefs more than ever. Going through the hell of the last six months has left my faith shaky at best. I still hold onto the mustard seed in my wallet and I still hope that I can find a way through the spiritual darkness I've been wandering through for the last couple of months.

Lent is my favorite season in the church, culminating on the Triddum which really feeds my spirit. I think it's almost as spiritually uplifting as the Novenas are to me.

I slept through most of the morning again today. I'm fighting insomnia and I get my best sleep in the mornings. I hope that somewhere, deep inside of me, I find a light in the dark. It's not fun wandering in this desert.


rcm said...

Hey there.
I FINALLY found where I'd bookmarked your blog!

There's a reason they call it the dark night of the soul, eh?
I'll keep you in my prayers. I like that quote of Paul Claudel -
Jesus did not come to explain our suffering or to take it away. He came to fill it with his presence.
There sure is great pain in not being able to "feel" his presence, but you have to know he is right there with you.
Oh, you do know that, of course. It's just good to be reminded from time to time. His love goes beyond what we can feel or understand.
He is full of tenderness for you.
Take good care...

Maria said...

Ah, yes... that is a very good reminder. Whether or not that I know it, it's good to be reminded.

Blessings to you