I am a masochist after all. So, today I heard more about how he screwed up again, and again. Of course, the one person I need to hear that from is HIM and I never will. My friends saw his old car and they talked with the guy who bought it. Of course, they asked about the kid who sold him the car and the guy who bought it told him everything he knew and what he said, how he felt bad for messing up things here, how he just needed to go home and he wanted to sell the car for his plane ticket.
All I wanted then was for him to tell me straight out how he felt. Oh yeah, guys don't talk about their feelings. He wanted to brood and be morose. I know he was struggling and I didn't want to pressure him. All I wanted was for him to ask me for help.
I go back in time and wonder if I did all that I could, if I was too strong and too pushy. Was it a mistake to tell him how I felt? Would it have changed things? At the time, all I knew was that I was falling in love with him and wanted him in my life.
I just wish she never mentioned this whole little incident. I know she means well, but every time she says she's heard about him, it just upsets me. At least I haven't cried! That's something.
With the kind of luck I have, all the parties involved will find my blog. ;-)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
What Next?
Monday, May 26, 2008
Corpus Christi
So Mom took me birthday shopping. Ok, I drove, but she bought me presents. We walked around town and then we went to the services for Corpus Christi at the Cathedral. We didn't take part in the whole procession, we watched it as it got on the way. It was beautiful though and took some pictures
as it went by. Alas, I'm saving up my excitement for next week's procession for the Novena to La Conquistadora, whom is probably the patron of my journal.
This is a whimsical statue of St. Francis, patron saint of our Cathedral Basilica. It's actually a water fountain and has some lovely quotes carved on it, attributed to St. Francis.
I didn't arrive early enough to get a decent shot of the altar and how beautiful it looked. This was near the end of the service, when everyone was gathering together for the procession, but we really do have a beautiful church and we have such a strong and wonderful faith in this community. I truly love being Catholic and living here.
Coming out of the Cathedral. Leading the procession were First Communicants and other children carrying baskets of flowers, dropping the petals as they passed, (not pictured) then the parishes emerged and the various orders, the third orders, other groups and finally the clergy of St. Francis, the Archbishop and the Blessed Sacrament.
The procession begins. Clergy from the Cathedral Basilica of St. Francis emerge from the front doors with Archbishop Sheehan carrying the Blessed Sacrament.
The journey from the church begins.
The Procession leaves the church down Cathedral Place, just in front of the the La Fonda Hotel.
Following a trail of rose petals the Blessed Sacrament wound its way down town and back to the church.
(I took these photos yesterday and I'm still muddling my way with uploading pictures. In Quark or Photoshop it's easy. Here, it's not doing what I want. I wish I'd gotten better pictures but we were just there for a while. We didn't participate in the procession, though next week I will participate in the procession as La Conquistadora is taken from her chapel in the Cathedral to the Rosario Chapel for the novena in her honor.)
as it went by. Alas, I'm saving up my excitement for next week's procession for the Novena to La Conquistadora, whom is probably the patron of my journal.
This is a whimsical statue of St. Francis, patron saint of our Cathedral Basilica. It's actually a water fountain and has some lovely quotes carved on it, attributed to St. Francis.
I didn't arrive early enough to get a decent shot of the altar and how beautiful it looked. This was near the end of the service, when everyone was gathering together for the procession, but we really do have a beautiful church and we have such a strong and wonderful faith in this community. I truly love being Catholic and living here.
Coming out of the Cathedral. Leading the procession were First Communicants and other children carrying baskets of flowers, dropping the petals as they passed, (not pictured) then the parishes emerged and the various orders, the third orders, other groups and finally the clergy of St. Francis, the Archbishop and the Blessed Sacrament.
The procession begins. Clergy from the Cathedral Basilica of St. Francis emerge from the front doors with Archbishop Sheehan carrying the Blessed Sacrament.
The journey from the church begins.
The Procession leaves the church down Cathedral Place, just in front of the the La Fonda Hotel.
Following a trail of rose petals the Blessed Sacrament wound its way down town and back to the church.
(I took these photos yesterday and I'm still muddling my way with uploading pictures. In Quark or Photoshop it's easy. Here, it's not doing what I want. I wish I'd gotten better pictures but we were just there for a while. We didn't participate in the procession, though next week I will participate in the procession as La Conquistadora is taken from her chapel in the Cathedral to the Rosario Chapel for the novena in her honor.)
Thursday, May 22, 2008
A young priest talks about the generation gap in this article published on the Commonweal site.
I read a lot about the priesthood for personal interest and for my writing. One of my characters is a youngish-priest, post Vatican II and was mentored by a much older, much more traditional pre-Vatican II era priest. So, reading things like this helps give me insight to how my characters would be in the real world and also provides a look into the church of today.
I read a lot about the priesthood for personal interest and for my writing. One of my characters is a youngish-priest, post Vatican II and was mentored by a much older, much more traditional pre-Vatican II era priest. So, reading things like this helps give me insight to how my characters would be in the real world and also provides a look into the church of today.
I guess it's finally sinking in...
I hate, I hate... I really hate that I had a taste of something oh so sweet and oh so wonderful... I felt it in every being of my body. It felt like magic, it felt special, and I couldn't believe it was happening to me. I liked how it felt to be finally, joyfully, happily blissfully falling in love. Then it all turned so bitter, so wretched so fast, without any warning, without a clue. Suddenly, what I thought I had, longed for and found was gone.
I couldn't make him feel something for me that he didn't. I couldn't give him peace in his own life and I couldn't save what I thought I had, longed for and found. I couldn't save him.
It was over. Just like that.
God... I hate it. I really do. But more than anything, I hate that I'm thinking about it him. Again.
I couldn't make him feel something for me that he didn't. I couldn't give him peace in his own life and I couldn't save what I thought I had, longed for and found. I couldn't save him.
It was over. Just like that.
God... I hate it. I really do. But more than anything, I hate that I'm thinking about
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Man, I'm bummed about Senator Kennedy. I grew up in a family of Kennedy-esque Democrats. It's truly sad news. I was thinking about trying to find the photos I took of a rally where he was a speaker. I met him and his wife that day. I was in college so this was more than 10 years ago. I wonder what other photos I have that I took from that class. I wonder if I have anything worthwhile scanning?
I've been trying to take pictures more often, one to finish that photo meme I never did and because it's a fun thing to do. It's getting windy outside and the weather is changing again. We had a record high temp yesterday. It's still May, too early for 90* plus temps. Yeah, Global Warming isn't real.
I've been trying to take pictures more often, one to finish that photo meme I never did and because it's a fun thing to do. It's getting windy outside and the weather is changing again. We had a record high temp yesterday. It's still May, too early for 90* plus temps. Yeah, Global Warming isn't real.
Let's Go For A Ride
Father Daren Zehnle at the Sevant and Steward whose blog I stumbled on once before and again today by following a link from Ask Sister Mary Martha posted this meme and since I'm sitting at my office, procrastinating I answered it. I should get some lunch and then go to the gym.
Also, I think in time most of my blogging is going to be done over here instead of LJ.
What time is your alarm clock set to? One at 6:30 for Tues-Thurs and 7:30 in case I oversleep.
What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes. Hair. Teeth. Calves (if I can see them)
Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Probably. Isn't that just part of life?
What movie do you know every line to? The Princess Bride, The Highlander
What is your favorite movie? The Princess Bride, It's a Wonderful Life and a whole bunch more.
Is anyone in love with you? I don't think so. I wish.
Do you eat breakfast daily? Usually a bowl of cereal at the least, sometimes not.
Do you sleep on your side, stomach or back? I go from side to side at night.
Who was the last person to make you mad? I'm not so much mad but have hurt feelings because of something a friend said. I took it too much to heart I guess. I'll get over it.
Are you a lover or a fighter? Probably a more of a lover, but I have some fighter in me.
Are you a morning or evening person? Night.
Are you a cuddler? No.
Are you a perfectionist? It depends, but yes, sometimes.
Have you ever written a poem? Yes, a few, they all sucked. I'm not fond of poetry.
Do you have more guy or girl friends? Girl friends.
Piercings? Five.
Do you have a tattoo? No, sometimes, I still want one, but I'll probably never will have one.
Are you patient? No.
Do you miss anyone right now? Yes.
Tea or coffee? Chai Latte. (Iced in summer. Hot in winter). Coffee Ice Cream.
Regularly burn incense? No. But I love the incense at Mass. Can't wait till the novena starts next weekend. There will be plenty of smells and bells.
Ever been in love? Twice.
Best room for a fireplace? Living room and/or master bedroom.
What do you do when you're sad or upset? Obsess about it. I should cry or work out. Praying might be another good option.
Afraid of heights? Just ladders.
Can you change the oil in your car? No.
Favorite flower? Violet
Favorite hangout? I don't really have one.
Middle name? Teresita
Most romantic sounding language? Spanish
Ever been overseas? Not yet.
Tag yourself if you wish.
Also, I think in time most of my blogging is going to be done over here instead of LJ.
What time is your alarm clock set to? One at 6:30 for Tues-Thurs and 7:30 in case I oversleep.
What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes. Hair. Teeth. Calves (if I can see them)
Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Probably. Isn't that just part of life?
What movie do you know every line to? The Princess Bride, The Highlander
What is your favorite movie? The Princess Bride, It's a Wonderful Life and a whole bunch more.
Is anyone in love with you? I don't think so. I wish.
Do you eat breakfast daily? Usually a bowl of cereal at the least, sometimes not.
Do you sleep on your side, stomach or back? I go from side to side at night.
Who was the last person to make you mad? I'm not so much mad but have hurt feelings because of something a friend said. I took it too much to heart I guess. I'll get over it.
Are you a lover or a fighter? Probably a more of a lover, but I have some fighter in me.
Are you a morning or evening person? Night.
Are you a cuddler? No.
Are you a perfectionist? It depends, but yes, sometimes.
Have you ever written a poem? Yes, a few, they all sucked. I'm not fond of poetry.
Do you have more guy or girl friends? Girl friends.
Piercings? Five.
Do you have a tattoo? No, sometimes, I still want one, but I'll probably never will have one.
Are you patient? No.
Do you miss anyone right now? Yes.
Tea or coffee? Chai Latte. (Iced in summer. Hot in winter). Coffee Ice Cream.
Regularly burn incense? No. But I love the incense at Mass. Can't wait till the novena starts next weekend. There will be plenty of smells and bells.
Ever been in love? Twice.
Best room for a fireplace? Living room and/or master bedroom.
What do you do when you're sad or upset? Obsess about it. I should cry or work out. Praying might be another good option.
Afraid of heights? Just ladders.
Can you change the oil in your car? No.
Favorite flower? Violet
Favorite hangout? I don't really have one.
Middle name? Teresita
Most romantic sounding language? Spanish
Ever been overseas? Not yet.
Tag yourself if you wish.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Just got home from my walk... while I love walking and going to the gym, I'm terribly un-self-disciplined and never seem to go. I'm going to to try to do it every day. I know in a year it will be worthwhile and it will be a part of my lifestyle and I'll wonder why I didn't do it before.
I found "Jesus Camp" on the Biography channel. It's near the end but the last 18 minutes that I've seen have totally amazed me. I know the Evangelical movement in this country is-- I wouldn't necessarily say falling apart-- but it is not as strong as it once was. I may try watching the repeat but I'm not sure I can stomach it.
I found "Jesus Camp" on the Biography channel. It's near the end but the last 18 minutes that I've seen have totally amazed me. I know the Evangelical movement in this country is-- I wouldn't necessarily say falling apart-- but it is not as strong as it once was. I may try watching the repeat but I'm not sure I can stomach it.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Mr. Sandman
It's 10:00 and I should be getting to bed. I need to start practicing, the Novena to La Conquistadora is coming up in about two weeks. I can't do 4:30 mornings if I don't get to bed early. I'm still very exciting like a little fangirl for this Novena. This year, I'll really feel like I'm participating, because I know what it's all about, my parish has a day and I'll probably walk in both processions. But here I am, two weeks out, and not getting to bed. Ok, tomorrow, I'll go to bed early. I will also go to the gym because the new skirt I want to wear on Sunday, is a snug too tight. Nothing like two weeks of waist whittling exercise to solve that problem. ;-)
Blogs, blogs and more blogs...
There's a new fun Catholic Blog out there. It's another in the line of new "Stuff (Insert Group of People Here) Like blogs. "Stuff Catholics Like" was started by a few notable Catholic bloggers on the Internets, with whom I'm familiar. And so far has been quite a fun read.
While it's not so dissimilar to apparently blogs of the same genre like "Stuff Christians Like" and "Stuff White People Like" it's more fun, well to me anyway. I suppose I'm biased.
I thought the stuff Christian's like is a bit too... something... generic, non-denominational, not quite catholic enough, who knows??? I mean, face it Catholics have ritual, tradition, sacraments, relics, grand Cathedrals, novenas, statues, and the pope... how can anything else compare?
However, I did find some mild amusement with the Stuff White People Like blog. I wonder if anyone has started the Stuff Hispanic/Latino/Mexican (pick your descriptor) blog yet? Me thinks, that would be a fun one.
Meanwhile, I will endeavor to add more blogs to my blog roll. I just wish Blogger had reader like LJ.
While it's not so dissimilar to apparently blogs of the same genre like "Stuff Christians Like" and "Stuff White People Like" it's more fun, well to me anyway. I suppose I'm biased.
I thought the stuff Christian's like is a bit too... something... generic, non-denominational, not quite catholic enough, who knows??? I mean, face it Catholics have ritual, tradition, sacraments, relics, grand Cathedrals, novenas, statues, and the pope... how can anything else compare?
However, I did find some mild amusement with the Stuff White People Like blog. I wonder if anyone has started the Stuff Hispanic/Latino/Mexican (pick your descriptor) blog yet? Me thinks, that would be a fun one.
Meanwhile, I will endeavor to add more blogs to my blog roll. I just wish Blogger had reader like LJ.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Sense of Wonder
This first is a snippet of a post I made on LJ earlier. I figured I might expand on those thoughts.
It was the first really hot day of the year. There was also no wind which to make it unbearable. I took the dogs for a walk, only Barkley wimped out on us, so Estrella and I brought him home, then continued on our journey. We saw the first coyote of the season. It was a scrawny little thing. It ran off when it heard us coming. As I'm walking the back forty of my subdivision, I noticed my church. Well, I actually noticed it the other day for the first time. I've lived in this subdivision 14 years and the church has been there for 15. It's amazing how this is the first time I really noticed it. Surely, I must have noticed it before? Strange after all this time I hadn't. It's a big church. It's about two-miles away from my house with lots of vacant land between where I walk and it. Anyway, maybe before I wasn't open spiritually and never really able to see it. I know most of you all aren't overly religious or don't follow any one particular faith. For me, I've always believed, though I haven't always practiced it. I've always considered myself culturally Catholic but now I'm a more than that, as I've gone back to Church. It's far from a perfect church and quite frankly, I will probably always have some issues with it, but it's the one that fits me best. Also oddly enough the things I thought I'd have issues with in the church aren't. So... I'm still a bit confuzzled about that.
I really enjoyed Mass today. Father gave a wonderful homily today. There are some days when I'm so focused and engaged in the Mass, today was one of them. There are days when he says something that resonates with me to my very being. It's sad to see so many empty pews. There are four Masses on Sundays, and the Vigil Mass on Saturdays. I hope the pews are fuller during the other Masses. I imagine come Monday Father is quite tired. There are other priests at my parish, but I think our pastor celebrates the majority of the Masses every week. And he doesn't get off weekends to rest, ;-)
I really love my parish and I do really love the Catholic Church. It's home. It's hard to believe that I left it for so long. I wonder if my coming back would have been different had I church shopped or joined some other church? I just always knew that I couldn't be any other religion. (Oddly enough, I answered a forum post a while back that asked if I wasn't a Catholic, what religion would I be? I was surprised how many people also said Jewish. Many based their answers upon the notion that neither Catholicism nor Christianity existed. That was the natural answer for them and for me as well. But for me... the question is really, could I be a non-Catholic Christian? I don't think so. Christianity for me is represented in the whole truth of Catholicism, so no, I couldn't be anything but a Catholic, most especially an Episcopalian/Anglican or a Lutheran, no matter how similar they are, they just aren't "Catholic" and there is no way I could join any other Catholic church not in communion to Rome, so no Old Catholic, SSPX or anything else etc. Orthodox is the exception. That's where I'd probably go.
Speaking of non-Catholic Christians, I went with my neighbor to hear Bishop Spong speak. Now, I knew who he was so I was prepared. He was speaking at a Santa Fe Jewish-Christian Dialog event. I went on Friday night and the best thing about the night was the Sabbath service at the Synagogue. There's lots and lots about him on the Internets-- google him-- to gage your own thoughts and opinions. He has critics and fans both. Still, I didn't find him to have anything mind-boggling or eye opening. I didn't find him to even be that credible. I wanted to be objective and open minded, but I felt like his ideas were either common sense or laughable at best. While, I'm not an apologetic or incredibly well versed in church history or the Bible, (I know some but nothing compared to others) I'm still learning on this exciting and mysterious journey . I didn't feel like he was saying anything earth shattering or enlightening. Still, I wish I had the ability to refute what he did say or debate him even though he didn't shake my faith.
I've read opinions and have looked up his thoughts and philosophies and while to some what he says sounds good, it sounds more like malarky to me. Maybe he's trying to shake the foundations of Christianity and looking for another reform, but it just didn't work for me. He spoke twice and I didn't attend yesterday where he espoused his opinions about the resurrection, crucifixion, Mary Magdalene. I haven't gotten a full report from my friend, but when I do, I'll probably write more.
Nonetheless, it was an interesting Friday-- as I said the Sabbath Service was the best part. It was beautiful.
It was the first really hot day of the year. There was also no wind which to make it unbearable. I took the dogs for a walk, only Barkley wimped out on us, so Estrella and I brought him home, then continued on our journey. We saw the first coyote of the season. It was a scrawny little thing. It ran off when it heard us coming. As I'm walking the back forty of my subdivision, I noticed my church. Well, I actually noticed it the other day for the first time. I've lived in this subdivision 14 years and the church has been there for 15. It's amazing how this is the first time I really noticed it. Surely, I must have noticed it before? Strange after all this time I hadn't. It's a big church. It's about two-miles away from my house with lots of vacant land between where I walk and it. Anyway, maybe before I wasn't open spiritually and never really able to see it. I know most of you all aren't overly religious or don't follow any one particular faith. For me, I've always believed, though I haven't always practiced it. I've always considered myself culturally Catholic but now I'm a more than that, as I've gone back to Church. It's far from a perfect church and quite frankly, I will probably always have some issues with it, but it's the one that fits me best. Also oddly enough the things I thought I'd have issues with in the church aren't. So... I'm still a bit confuzzled about that.
I really enjoyed Mass today. Father gave a wonderful homily today. There are some days when I'm so focused and engaged in the Mass, today was one of them. There are days when he says something that resonates with me to my very being. It's sad to see so many empty pews. There are four Masses on Sundays, and the Vigil Mass on Saturdays. I hope the pews are fuller during the other Masses. I imagine come Monday Father is quite tired. There are other priests at my parish, but I think our pastor celebrates the majority of the Masses every week. And he doesn't get off weekends to rest, ;-)
I really love my parish and I do really love the Catholic Church. It's home. It's hard to believe that I left it for so long. I wonder if my coming back would have been different had I church shopped or joined some other church? I just always knew that I couldn't be any other religion. (Oddly enough, I answered a forum post a while back that asked if I wasn't a Catholic, what religion would I be? I was surprised how many people also said Jewish. Many based their answers upon the notion that neither Catholicism nor Christianity existed. That was the natural answer for them and for me as well. But for me... the question is really, could I be a non-Catholic Christian? I don't think so. Christianity for me is represented in the whole truth of Catholicism, so no, I couldn't be anything but a Catholic, most especially an Episcopalian/Anglican or a Lutheran, no matter how similar they are, they just aren't "Catholic" and there is no way I could join any other Catholic church not in communion to Rome, so no Old Catholic, SSPX or anything else etc. Orthodox is the exception. That's where I'd probably go.
Speaking of non-Catholic Christians, I went with my neighbor to hear Bishop Spong speak. Now, I knew who he was so I was prepared. He was speaking at a Santa Fe Jewish-Christian Dialog event. I went on Friday night and the best thing about the night was the Sabbath service at the Synagogue. There's lots and lots about him on the Internets-- google him-- to gage your own thoughts and opinions. He has critics and fans both. Still, I didn't find him to have anything mind-boggling or eye opening. I didn't find him to even be that credible. I wanted to be objective and open minded, but I felt like his ideas were either common sense or laughable at best. While, I'm not an apologetic or incredibly well versed in church history or the Bible, (I know some but nothing compared to others) I'm still learning on this exciting and mysterious journey . I didn't feel like he was saying anything earth shattering or enlightening. Still, I wish I had the ability to refute what he did say or debate him even though he didn't shake my faith.
I've read opinions and have looked up his thoughts and philosophies and while to some what he says sounds good, it sounds more like malarky to me. Maybe he's trying to shake the foundations of Christianity and looking for another reform, but it just didn't work for me. He spoke twice and I didn't attend yesterday where he espoused his opinions about the resurrection, crucifixion, Mary Magdalene. I haven't gotten a full report from my friend, but when I do, I'll probably write more.
Nonetheless, it was an interesting Friday-- as I said the Sabbath Service was the best part. It was beautiful.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Pictures of Me, You, Whoever....
I had no idea what Picasa was. I keep finding neato things. So... I have something new to play with. Groovy. I had a gallery and didn't even know it. So there isn't anything there but... there might be one day.
Sorry is the hardest word
Here's an actual copy of the letter Hagee sent to Bill Donohue of the Catholic League apologizing for his comments and remarks about the Church in the past. I hadn't read it before, but I had heard about his noble gesture to help the sisters in San Antonio and that he wrote a nice letter or piece about the pope's recent visit. While, I think it's a nice that he apologizes, I don't take it seriously. I still think it's all about timing and politics.
I've seen people jump to his defense about buying the property where the Ursuline Sisters were about to be evicted, he said they could live there rent free for 12 years, why not forever? That would have been a grand, Christian gesture.
Ok...I'm done. I'm cynical and jaded. That will probably never change.
I've seen people jump to his defense about buying the property where the Ursuline Sisters were about to be evicted, he said they could live there rent free for 12 years, why not forever? That would have been a grand, Christian gesture.
Ok...I'm done. I'm cynical and jaded. That will probably never change.
Oh man... Dara O'Briain says it all...
My Catholic Funny of the day. Though, I must admit I saw it on another Catholic Community and didn't discover it on my own. The part about the "Our Father" cracks me up.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
What do you mean there is another pope??
Every now and then I stumble upon some interesting "catholic" websites. I know there have been anti-popes historically, but until I started researching for my novel, I didn't realize there were still some alive today. Today in comments at a post at Father Z's blog, I heard about two others I didn't know about. Pope Michael in Kansas and then a whole sect in Spain.
So who are the modern day Anti Popes? First off, there's Pope Pius XIII,
who had been an ordained priest of the Capuchin Order, who apparently left after the Novus Ordo came to be. I did find the "True Catholic" church's website a bit disconcerting as I was pretty certain the one true Pope lived in Rome, not in Washington State. Sad to say, that even his family didn't believe he was pope, as seven of eight of his siblings and distant relatives stayed in Communion with Rome.
But not to worry, there is Pope Michael. David Bawden and he lives in Kansas. Is there a place in Kansas named Rome? Well, wiki says: He was elected by a group of six lay sedevacantists, which included himself and his parents, to fill the vacancy they consider to have been caused by the death of Pope Pius XII in 1958. Unlike other papal claimants, David Bawden's election did not involve any previously ordained clergy from the Catholic Church. Although Bawden attended two seminaries run by the Society of Saint Pius X, he was never ordained as a priest and has never offered a Mass as "pope."
Lastly, there are the Palmarians, from Spain. They have colorful vestments. Their first pope was an insurance salesman, who revised his own edition of the Bible and had visions. Their current Pope is Manual Corral, aka Peter II. In the Church's history there has never been a Peter II. Of course, this church is not in Communion with Rome.
I'm not trying to be uncharitable nor poke fun of these groups, but hearing about them did pique my interest so I had to look 'em up. They are reactionary groups that came to be after Vatican II and the Novus Ordo Mass came to be. So did the SSXP, but they are very different from the SSXP.
Now, I like the Novus Ordo Mass. Maybe because I am used to it, maybe I don't know any better, but in my life, I have really only encountered solemn, reverent NO masses. Having attended my first Latin Mass, (as an adult. I probably went as an infant and toddler but have no memory of it) I have every respect and understanding for it, but it will not be the Mass I seek out every Sunday. It is however, nice to know that if I want to, I can attend one in my Archdiocese without going to a "schismatic church". I think the "Real" pope recognizes the desire that many people want to attend TLM on a regular basis, so he loosened the restrictions. It never went a way, but it wasn't widely available in most dioceses. I'd like to see a return to some of the old traditions that have kind of slipped away, but I also don't want to lose many of the good things that came from Vatican II.
So who are the modern day Anti Popes? First off, there's Pope Pius XIII,
who had been an ordained priest of the Capuchin Order, who apparently left after the Novus Ordo came to be. I did find the "True Catholic" church's website a bit disconcerting as I was pretty certain the one true Pope lived in Rome, not in Washington State. Sad to say, that even his family didn't believe he was pope, as seven of eight of his siblings and distant relatives stayed in Communion with Rome.
But not to worry, there is Pope Michael. David Bawden and he lives in Kansas. Is there a place in Kansas named Rome? Well, wiki says: He was elected by a group of six lay sedevacantists, which included himself and his parents, to fill the vacancy they consider to have been caused by the death of Pope Pius XII in 1958. Unlike other papal claimants, David Bawden's election did not involve any previously ordained clergy from the Catholic Church. Although Bawden attended two seminaries run by the Society of Saint Pius X, he was never ordained as a priest and has never offered a Mass as "pope."
Lastly, there are the Palmarians, from Spain. They have colorful vestments. Their first pope was an insurance salesman, who revised his own edition of the Bible and had visions. Their current Pope is Manual Corral, aka Peter II. In the Church's history there has never been a Peter II. Of course, this church is not in Communion with Rome.
I'm not trying to be uncharitable nor poke fun of these groups, but hearing about them did pique my interest so I had to look 'em up. They are reactionary groups that came to be after Vatican II and the Novus Ordo Mass came to be. So did the SSXP, but they are very different from the SSXP.
Now, I like the Novus Ordo Mass. Maybe because I am used to it, maybe I don't know any better, but in my life, I have really only encountered solemn, reverent NO masses. Having attended my first Latin Mass, (as an adult. I probably went as an infant and toddler but have no memory of it) I have every respect and understanding for it, but it will not be the Mass I seek out every Sunday. It is however, nice to know that if I want to, I can attend one in my Archdiocese without going to a "schismatic church". I think the "Real" pope recognizes the desire that many people want to attend TLM on a regular basis, so he loosened the restrictions. It never went a way, but it wasn't widely available in most dioceses. I'd like to see a return to some of the old traditions that have kind of slipped away, but I also don't want to lose many of the good things that came from Vatican II.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Religion and Politics
This is not a political post. Not really. But it seems that Pastor Hagee, the world's or at least this country's favorite Anti-Catholic, has apologized for his comments against my Church. Interesting. So, in that apology, did we get what we wanted? Bill Donohue, president of the Catholic League says so.
"Donohue, one of Hagee's sharpest critics, said he accepted the apology and planned to meet with Hagee Thursday in New York. "I got what I wanted," Donohue said in an interview. "He's seen the light, as they like to say. So for me it's over."
While not my favorite Catholic spokesman by far, but when he was on The Colbert Report recently, I totally agreed with him on his take on Pastor Hagee. At least by publicly apologizing, Hagee's admitted he's said, implied or believed the bullshit he rattles off so easily in his well, researched and well thought-out video, not!
It totally boggles my mind that people believe him, think his message is true and Christian, when all it is is full of hate and vile bigotry. Unrelated to his Anti-Catholicism, but interesting nonetheless, I saw a video about his Christian Zionist movement. Not being an End Times believer or a follower of the Rapture, it's a bit amusing to watch, especially since it opens with Tom Delay being interviewed. The followers Hagee amasses, those believers totally astonish me because what they say in the video just sounds so ludicrous. However, it's also quite eye-opening at the same time. This video made by Max Blumenthal was posted with an article at TPM (Talking Points Memo) in February . Though, I think the video was produced at their Christians United For Israel Conference last summer. At the end, when the interviewer asks some heavy, pointed questions to Hagee, he gets flustered and eventually ends up throwing out Blumenthal and his film crew.
Still, the question now is, will this apology help McCain with the Catholic vote? Hillary is winning the Catholic vote among Democrats, which surprises me a bit. Honestly, I expected the vote to be a bit more evenly split. However, I'm going to refrain from talking too much about that right now. I'm just writing about my observations and what have been reported in the media already, not personal feelings, cuz quite frankly, as a Democrat, I'm having a hard time with this election cycle. And I still will never vote for a Republican no matter what. I also shudder to think that I won't vote.
"Donohue, one of Hagee's sharpest critics, said he accepted the apology and planned to meet with Hagee Thursday in New York. "I got what I wanted," Donohue said in an interview. "He's seen the light, as they like to say. So for me it's over."
While not my favorite Catholic spokesman by far, but when he was on The Colbert Report recently, I totally agreed with him on his take on Pastor Hagee. At least by publicly apologizing, Hagee's admitted he's said, implied or believed the bullshit he rattles off so easily in his well, researched and well thought-out video, not!
It totally boggles my mind that people believe him, think his message is true and Christian, when all it is is full of hate and vile bigotry. Unrelated to his Anti-Catholicism, but interesting nonetheless, I saw a video about his Christian Zionist movement. Not being an End Times believer or a follower of the Rapture, it's a bit amusing to watch, especially since it opens with Tom Delay being interviewed. The followers Hagee amasses, those believers totally astonish me because what they say in the video just sounds so ludicrous. However, it's also quite eye-opening at the same time. This video made by Max Blumenthal was posted with an article at TPM (Talking Points Memo) in February . Though, I think the video was produced at their Christians United For Israel Conference last summer. At the end, when the interviewer asks some heavy, pointed questions to Hagee, he gets flustered and eventually ends up throwing out Blumenthal and his film crew.
Still, the question now is, will this apology help McCain with the Catholic vote? Hillary is winning the Catholic vote among Democrats, which surprises me a bit. Honestly, I expected the vote to be a bit more evenly split. However, I'm going to refrain from talking too much about that right now. I'm just writing about my observations and what have been reported in the media already, not personal feelings, cuz quite frankly, as a Democrat, I'm having a hard time with this election cycle. And I still will never vote for a Republican no matter what. I also shudder to think that I won't vote.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Can't find this stuff at WalMart
Not sure where I saw a link to this website, Monastery Greetings but it's an online catalog and website "which gathers together products from abbeys, convents, monasteries and hermitages."
There are some lovely things and I wish I had the money to buy a lot of what I've seen, especially in time for Mother's Day. Nonetheless, I thought it was a good idea to make mention of it, because while I think we should always support local businesses when we can, I think it's also important to support the religious-- besides who better than to support than monks, brothers and nuns?
There are some lovely things and I wish I had the money to buy a lot of what I've seen, especially in time for Mother's Day. Nonetheless, I thought it was a good idea to make mention of it, because while I think we should always support local businesses when we can, I think it's also important to support the religious-- besides who better than to support than monks, brothers and nuns?
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Breathless...
It's true what they say about working out, if you go on a Monday, you tend to continue throughout the week. The last time I worked out was a week ago Friday. I just kept blowing off my workout, which isn't good, because I need it so much. Anyway, I just got back from a long (an hour) walk, I did the loop twice, up the hill from hell twice and no shin splints. Lately, I've been plagued by shin splints-- I'm not sure if I need shoes or walk too fast. Tonight, I probably walked about 2 1/4 miles, maybe a bit more. I need a pedometer. I walked at a slower pace babying my shins. Seemed to work except now I'm wheezing-- not because of the exercise-- but something in the air triggered my asthma to flare. Man, you're damned if you don't, damned if you do.
Breathe
I hate coming to an end of a book that I'm enjoying. It's silly to say but i get a little sad when I end a good book. Last night I finished "The Seven Storey Mountain" by Thomas Merton. I have lots to say about it and will later, but I was totally in love with this book. I know it's possible to fall in love with books.
Anyway, I logged onto my Google page and this was the quote in the tidbits module:
"Let there always be quiet, dark churches in which people can take refuge...Houses of God filled with his silent presence. There, even when they do not know how to pray, at least they can be still and breathe easily."
— Thomas Merton
The part about knowing how to pray really sums it up for me most times, but sitting in a quiet, dark church is one of the most calming, comforting things in the world. I have noticed in that kind of stillness and quiet, it is easy to breathe.
I thought the quote was rather timely since I just finished reading his autobiography and am anxious to delve into some of his other writings, but meanwhile, I have to find something else to read. I'm trying to stick with non-fiction, spiritual and books not in the genre that I write, which I haven't quite figured out, but contemporary literature/drama/light comedy/maybe angsty chick lit best sums it up.
Anyway, I logged onto my Google page and this was the quote in the tidbits module:
"Let there always be quiet, dark churches in which people can take refuge...Houses of God filled with his silent presence. There, even when they do not know how to pray, at least they can be still and breathe easily."
— Thomas Merton
The part about knowing how to pray really sums it up for me most times, but sitting in a quiet, dark church is one of the most calming, comforting things in the world. I have noticed in that kind of stillness and quiet, it is easy to breathe.
I thought the quote was rather timely since I just finished reading his autobiography and am anxious to delve into some of his other writings, but meanwhile, I have to find something else to read. I'm trying to stick with non-fiction, spiritual and books not in the genre that I write, which I haven't quite figured out, but contemporary literature/drama/light comedy/maybe angsty chick lit best sums it up.
Friday, May 2, 2008
Was there really any agony or ecstasy? Or was Michelangleo poking fun of the pope?
I was going to write up a rant about this, a show that aired on ABC 20/20 tonight, based upon this book and the theory that Michelangelo left behind hidden messages in the frescoes of the Sistine Chapel. But why do so when Father Z at What Does the Prayer Really Say? already did so already and in such a good way that I won't.
I found an interview with one of the author's of the book with a priest from I guess a segment on ABC, called Faith Matters. I think I might be obsessing with this longer than I should.
So, I guess I could worry and ponder this news from France about a Mystery Knights Templar tomb and this priceless tidbit:
"This treasure was believed to be priceless relics such as documents, the Holy Grail, even the embalmed remains of Jesus Christ and Mary Magdalene, which was then brought to southern France, and hidden."
Man, I wish I could finish one of my novels, so I'd have time to write about conspiracy theories and come up with things that will debunk the Catholic Church once and for all. Not.
I found an interview with one of the author's of the book with a priest from I guess a segment on ABC, called Faith Matters. I think I might be obsessing with this longer than I should.
So, I guess I could worry and ponder this news from France about a Mystery Knights Templar tomb and this priceless tidbit:
"This treasure was believed to be priceless relics such as documents, the Holy Grail, even the embalmed remains of Jesus Christ and Mary Magdalene, which was then brought to southern France, and hidden."
Man, I wish I could finish one of my novels, so I'd have time to write about conspiracy theories and come up with things that will debunk the Catholic Church once and for all. Not.
Feel the Silence
Interesting that I posted the earlier post, as it's First Friday and today is when the Blessed Sacrament is revealed at our church. We don't have a 24-hour, 7-day a week Adoration, just 24 hours on First Friday, though there are parishes in town which do. I think if I have trouble sleeping tonight, I may head over to the church for Adoration. I've had a lot of shit on my mind and it doesn't help not to get any sleep. Perhaps an hour of solitude in the comfort of the Blessed Sacrament might help.
Also, I've been thinking about doing the First Friday Devotion for a while. I know next month, First Friday falls during the Novena to La Conquistadora and am anxiously awaiting that so I can start then. ;-) If I get my butt out of the house, I may try to make it to Mass tonight, and start tonight.
Also, I've been thinking about doing the First Friday Devotion for a while. I know next month, First Friday falls during the Novena to La Conquistadora and am anxiously awaiting that so I can start then. ;-) If I get my butt out of the house, I may try to make it to Mass tonight, and start tonight.
Show Me Your Soul
Maybe this is my liberal bias kicking in but why are so many people concerned about who receives communion? I certainly don't sit around and look at the people who go up to receive and who don't. It's not my business nor my right to pass any judgments onto people sitting in the pews. I've been guilty of receiving communion with mortal sin on my soul. I'm sure everyone has at least once-- we're human and we sin. For a lot of people, that happens by plain ignorance. For a long time, I didn't know that skipping Mass on Sundays was a mortal sin. I know it's a grave thing but our Lord is also loving and forgiving as well and we're given with an opportunity by going Confession to acknowledge our sins and ask for absolution.
Yes, I know how wrong it is to receive Communion without being in the state of Grace. I don't disbelieve that it's the Body and Blood of Christ and yes, it's shameful to receive when one ought not to, but it happens. Should we chastise those who do? The fact that people obviously do chastise and judge troubles me.
Most people in the pews aren't public figures. Now, I'm speaking of the Catholic politicians who received at the Washington DC Papal Mass. Who knows what is/was really in their hearts that day? Just because they're liberals, doesn't mean they're lesser Catholics. Maybe they went to confession the night before, made a proper and sincere confession? Maybe they renounced their pro-choice positions in their confessions? Maybe they didn't, but it's really between them and God. None of us know what they did hours before that Mass. It's not our business to condemn or judge them. God will do that just like he'll judge all these people who are acting holier than thou and declaring it wrong that they went. Now, I'm not condoning them for going, nor do I condone anyone who goes with un-confessed mortal sin on his or her conscience. It's a grave thing and as Catholics we should all know that. Some of us, however, are probably more fortunate that we've been taught properly or we have priests who are willing to stand up before the laity and express the correct teachings of the church. So, they should know better and refrain from receiving Communion until they are in a state of Grace. Sadly, because of situations and circumstances, some may never be, but we should never judge them.
Still, so what, they went to communion and no one stopped them. It's not our decision as lay people to make. Maybe the bishop should have taken a stance, but as he said, he did not because he didn't have any direction or guidance from their own bishops in their dioceses.
"Archbishop Wuerl indicated that he would not bar a politician from receiving Communion unless the bishop of that politician's diocese had taken that step. He explained that he has "always respected the role of the local Church and the ministry of the individual bishop as shepherd of the Church entrusted to his care." "
I guess the point I'm trying to make is that it was their choice to receive communion, whether or not they should have, that's between them and God (maybe their bishop if he took a stance) and not the rest of us. I guess the preoccupation and obsession about it on the blogosphere, in message boards and in comments to online articles is what raised my ire a bit.
We are all capable of sin, in fact some of us sin a lot more than others. We all need to recognize that God doesn't want us to suffer and has given us opportunities to confess and ask for forgiveness.
Nonetheless, I enjoyed following the Pope's visit. I enjoyed watching his appearances, the masses were beautiful, and his speeches were profound, but I'm tired of all the negative fall out and commentary about the visit as well. We, as Catholics in America, should revel in the fact that the pope came to our country, offered thoughts of healing and hope to us as a people and a nation. He offered his blessings and imparted some wonderful words. I hope we take the time to remember those things and not what what we didn't like or what he didn't say or what didn't happen.
I also enjoyed the DC Mass. I'm used to multiculturalism in the pews and was astonished to hear all the negative commentary about that Mass. Sometimes, I forget the rest of the country is not like where I live. From my vantage point in my living room, Pope Benedict XVI didn't seem put off by it.
I think one lesson to take away from this Communion Kerfuffle, at the next stadium Mass, don't offer Communion to those in the pews, or better yet, don't have a stadium Mass.
Yes, I know how wrong it is to receive Communion without being in the state of Grace. I don't disbelieve that it's the Body and Blood of Christ and yes, it's shameful to receive when one ought not to, but it happens. Should we chastise those who do? The fact that people obviously do chastise and judge troubles me.
Most people in the pews aren't public figures. Now, I'm speaking of the Catholic politicians who received at the Washington DC Papal Mass. Who knows what is/was really in their hearts that day? Just because they're liberals, doesn't mean they're lesser Catholics. Maybe they went to confession the night before, made a proper and sincere confession? Maybe they renounced their pro-choice positions in their confessions? Maybe they didn't, but it's really between them and God. None of us know what they did hours before that Mass. It's not our business to condemn or judge them. God will do that just like he'll judge all these people who are acting holier than thou and declaring it wrong that they went. Now, I'm not condoning them for going, nor do I condone anyone who goes with un-confessed mortal sin on his or her conscience. It's a grave thing and as Catholics we should all know that. Some of us, however, are probably more fortunate that we've been taught properly or we have priests who are willing to stand up before the laity and express the correct teachings of the church. So, they should know better and refrain from receiving Communion until they are in a state of Grace. Sadly, because of situations and circumstances, some may never be, but we should never judge them.
Still, so what, they went to communion and no one stopped them. It's not our decision as lay people to make. Maybe the bishop should have taken a stance, but as he said, he did not because he didn't have any direction or guidance from their own bishops in their dioceses.
"Archbishop Wuerl indicated that he would not bar a politician from receiving Communion unless the bishop of that politician's diocese had taken that step. He explained that he has "always respected the role of the local Church and the ministry of the individual bishop as shepherd of the Church entrusted to his care." "
I guess the point I'm trying to make is that it was their choice to receive communion, whether or not they should have, that's between them and God (maybe their bishop if he took a stance) and not the rest of us. I guess the preoccupation and obsession about it on the blogosphere, in message boards and in comments to online articles is what raised my ire a bit.
We are all capable of sin, in fact some of us sin a lot more than others. We all need to recognize that God doesn't want us to suffer and has given us opportunities to confess and ask for forgiveness.
Nonetheless, I enjoyed following the Pope's visit. I enjoyed watching his appearances, the masses were beautiful, and his speeches were profound, but I'm tired of all the negative fall out and commentary about the visit as well. We, as Catholics in America, should revel in the fact that the pope came to our country, offered thoughts of healing and hope to us as a people and a nation. He offered his blessings and imparted some wonderful words. I hope we take the time to remember those things and not what what we didn't like or what he didn't say or what didn't happen.
I also enjoyed the DC Mass. I'm used to multiculturalism in the pews and was astonished to hear all the negative commentary about that Mass. Sometimes, I forget the rest of the country is not like where I live. From my vantage point in my living room, Pope Benedict XVI didn't seem put off by it.
I think one lesson to take away from this Communion Kerfuffle, at the next stadium Mass, don't offer Communion to those in the pews, or better yet, don't have a stadium Mass.
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